Head up buddy...

I am super excited, last Sunday (12/20/09) was the first day Jaiden put his head up completely. It was so cute, after eating, daddy took him to burb him. Daddy put him on his tummy with him resting on Daddy's legs, Jaiden then put his head up and gave us a big smile while burping at the same time. We were so excited, luckily I had my iPhone camera handy, I carry the iPhone with me everywhere just for any picture moments.

On a side note, we started writing down milestones on a calendar, one day when he is older, we will show him the calendar. Alot of mothers have told me that kids are super curious about their baby lives. For now though, I am taking one milestone at a time.

Jaiden Loves His Precious Planet Bouncer and Gym

OMG...there are two toys Jaiden loves which are Precious Planet Bouncer and the gym set. He plays in it, laughs and smiles every time he sees the cool animals. He loves the animals especially the Monkey. I have a new name for him after watching him enjoy all the animals, he is now my Chunky Monkey. The cool thing about the Bouncer is that a switch will allow the bouncer to start vibrating. Since babies love movement and that rocking feeling, they could fall asleep so easily in it.

Old Wives Tales by ME

Okay so when I was on pregnant/bedrest I read up on all the old wives tales regarding pregnancy and how to figure out gender, here is my experience with the gender wives tales:
My gender outcome: BOY!

1. How you carry during pregnancy - I carried low
2. Morning sickness - None
3. Craving - Taco Bell
4. Right eye vein - I had a Y indicating boy
5. Weight gain - only gained 20lbs during pregnancy
6. Carried out in front or around - carried out in front (like a basketball)
7. Got hairy legs - Yes, I had to shave every other day and a hairy stomach
8. People suggested I was having a boy

Jaiden Arjun Patel is HERE!!!

I have not written in so long, from being on bed rest to labor it sure has been a whirlwind of craziness. But I can proudly announce that baby boy Jaiden was born on 10/17/2009 at 2:14am weighing in at 5lbs 15.57oz. He's a tiny little guy but has already gained 6 ounces in one week. His middle name Arjun means white one brightly and clear, his name is also a name that is popularly known for an Indian Prince Warrior in the Indian stories of the Mahabharat. His first name is Jaiden, meaning thankful and it also means god has heard. We are very excited to finally have him here and I am very very thankful and happy that he came at 38 weeks, full term +1 week! God has definitely blessed us, now all we want to do is kiss and watch him all day long.

Baby Shower - August 23, 2009

The red on my face signifies an Indian Tradition, where two brothers from hubby's side place a bit of red food coloring on your face for protection and baby's health.

Two more months until Halloween, 31 Weeks

This last Saturday marked 31 weeks, woo hoo..I am slowly inching towards my October due date. Some days are tougher then others while on bed rest. It's been 6 weeks now and so far okay, I did have a bit of a scare last week. I had our weekly doctor check up and the doctor said that my cervix was "thinned out" and 50% effaced, scary. I was not happy after that visit!!
The doctor also stated that that I would be doing another FFN test on Monday, arghh! I was doing sooo well until last Thursday. I blame myself, I think I was happy that I was getting better that I moved around more, had a baby shower (I sat on a chair all day) and I also worried cause my sister who is home due to work layoff was going to be away and I would be alone for a couple of days. I need to stop worrying and stressing it's not healthy for me or the baby.
Anyway after coming back from the Doctor's office, I went straight to bed and did not come out of it at, I put myself on a strict bed rest. I think it worked, I went this morning to see Doctor K and he said you are doing good, not any worse after checking my cervix. He also did the FFN test to find out if there is a chance I will go into labor in the next two weeks. I am praying it comes back negative (cross my fingers). I wont find out for another two days (arghhh the wait). I learned my lesson and told myself to just rest and not to move around alot. See baby, I can't wait to see meet you but you gotta brew until Halloween or at least close to Halloween!!

Another Week Another Celebration!

Last Saturday marked 27 weeks for me YAY!! Another week another celebration. I guess I can handle this bed rest situation, it's hard but I can do it. Lots of family and friends are coming over so the time passes each day. My sister is home, she got laid of last Friday so her new job title is "Nurse Lena" she doesn't mind or at least she better not, I took care of her for the past so many years so it's her turn ha ha ha!! We had a Doctor appointment last Thursday, I was nervous, just going to the Doctor's office every week will make me nervous. I get nervous because I don't want him to say anything negative and I want each visit to be positive.
He checked my cervix and stated, "it's not effaced or thin just soft...which is not a great thing but it will be okay." He said I was doing alot better and to keep taking Procardia every three hours and drink lots and lots of water. The only complain I have is not being comfortable all the time and going to the restroom all the time, oh well it will be worth it. I forgot to mention but my fFN test came back negative :-) that's a great thing!
A negative test indicates that I will not go into labor for the next two weeks, but that was two Thursday's ago. I wonder if the Doctor will do another fFN test this coming Thursday. In the meantime, my mind has been free of worry and my butt has been resting, that's probably what the baby needed a little R&R.
Thank god for TV and the Internet!! Long live those two great technologies!!

I'm celebrating Weeks!

YAY, Saturday was my official 26 weeks! The reason why I am celebrating weeks now is because I had a scare last Tuesday, I was having contractions and the contractions were close. I didn't know what was wrong so I made a doc appointment for Tuesday to get it checked. My doc office checked my cervix and instantly sent me to the local L&D, I still didn't understand what was going on. When I got there the nurses admitted me right away and placed a contraction monitor as well as a fetal heart monitor on my tummy. Within half and hour the nurse brought this needle in of something called Tourmaline which helps stop contractions, from what she said I was about to go into labor...scary!!!!! They also hooked me up to an IV so I can get dehydrated fast, super fast. The IV made me cold, I was shivering in the hospital. Thank god DH and I got a L&D room so he could stay the night there. Around 5pm that day my Doc. came in to check my cervix and also check if the fFN (Fetal Fibronectin) test would come back positive, apparently that tests for if you will be going into labor w/in weeks (SCARY). That day the test came back false positive, because the nurse early checked my cervix with gel. I was so nervous, I even asked the doc if I should be worry, he said you don't worry, let me worry! In the next couple of hours, I had to take another Tourmaline shot and had to rest all night. They even gave me shots for developing baby's lung early (that's what freaked me out) but I was trying to stay calm. Wednesday morning came and I was feeling better, the nurse said my contractions stopped. But she kept telling me you need to drink more fluids. Instead of 1 or 2 bottle of waters you need to drink 2 liters (whoa) and I will need to be on bed rest for 11 weeks...The doc came back Wednesday morning again to check my cervix, he said it is 0 dilated but it's still tender and told me to just rest and, take a medication called Procardia every 3 hours and drink lots and lots of fluid. From that day on, I have been drinking lots and lots of water, where I am going to restroom every hour. It's worth it!!! I pray every morning that baby P does not come for another 11 to 15 weeks. It's a real wake up call when this happens. I don't know why this happened but I really believe I overworked myself that past weekend and did not have enough water. Shame on me. I learned my lesson the hard way!

The Baby's Gender is a:
Surprise..So we went in for our 20 week anatomical scan at the main hospital since the Doctor's office does not have a ultrasound machine. It was a warm Wednesday. We had to travel downstairs into the Radiology dept. I don't know why they keep all those high tech gadgets in the lower levels of all hospitals, I guess that's where they like to house them. So we went in at 4pm that day and I figured it would be a while to see a tech for the scan. Within 15 minutes my name was being called by this young man who was going to do that scan. I was excited because DH and I decided that DH would know the gender and he would keep it from me, so the first thing we was ask the tech is can DH know the gender and not to tell me and he said sorry cannot do that because DH is not the patient, I am only allowed to tell the patient if the patient wants to know, so I asked DH do you want to know? DH replied, that's okay we will keep it a secret. I asked him, you're okay with that and he said yup that's fine. So to this day, we have no idea if the baby is pink or blue. It's fun this way due to the guesses and speculation from everyone else. Techs will not tell you anything, I kept asking him is everything okay does the baby move, he did however tell me the baby's heart rate: 147 BPM that's a strong heart rate. YAY baby!!! keep beating! The whole experience was exciting! The Tech showed me the baby's shoulder, the spine, the butt :-) the thighs, the chunky stomach and then when I thought everything was good and great, the Tech showed me the face of the baby's and boom there it was MY HUGE NOSE!!! The baby has my huge nose! How could this be? The baby was suppose to get DH's nose and it has mine! The Tech gave me a u/s picture of the baby's face and there it is again, the HUGE NOSE...okay I am over it, even if it has my nose I will still love the baby! Cause at least we know one fact, that through this whole experience of IVF at least we know it's our tiny bundle of joy in the tummy cause the baby has my nose :-)

Falling Down....

I fell down walking down the stairs the other day. I landed on my back bone, that bone was sore for a couple of days. Luckily I only fell down three stairs and landed on my back and not on my abdomen, thank god. It still scared me a bit, so the following day I made an appointment with the Ob/Gyn, just to make sure everything was okay. When I got there, the nurse asked me why I was there before my regular OB appointment, I told her what happened she stated that the doctor will check my cervix to make sure it's still closed. As soon as the doctor came in he checked my cervix followed by the baby's heartbeat, at first he could not find the heartbeat but finally did.

I have to say that being pregnant has made me prone to forgetfulness, tiredness and unbalancing my center of gravity. I hear it's normal but it's scary and I need to be very careful from now on.

Now when I walk I walk carefully and I hold the stair railings when I walk down.

How my Pregnancy is going...

Here is a list of what I have been feeling/experiencing during pregnancy:
1. I have been very lucky with morning sickness, and have not had any...I was really waiting for the nausea and vomiting to come but nothing.
2. I started showing early, well since my ovaries were huge due to the IVF and I was thinking about this but I should have noticed it back then maybe that was a symptom of becoming pregnant, your ovaries stay huge.
To this date, people ask me if I am 20 weeks, I am only 18..they usually state, wow you are showing so early. I hope that okay. The doctor said not to worry and since I am a smaller figure that showing early is fine.
3. I have noticed that I am super sensitive to milk. They say milk does a body good but not for me. Everytime I drink milk I have to go potty...(#2) every time. Oh I do gag at toothpaste, if the toothpaste goes beyond a certain point in my mouth,
4. I gag at sweet toothpaste. Today I even gaged out some spit..sorry (don't imagine it).
5. I have started sleeping with one pillow below my head and one below my belly. I have to be leveled off, otherwise I feel very uncomfortable. I was thinking of investing into buying the body pillow everyone talks about.
6. I eat all the time, so hungry all the time.
7. I love to sleep in, every morning is a struggle to get up. But I have loads of energy after my morning sleeping struggle :-)
8. I think my DH felt the baby move at about 17 week 6 days. He was putting his hands on my belly and said, "a tapping sensation."
9. I feel something funky in the lower abdomen, it feels like the baby is rolling around, like bumby flutters, it is so hard to describe but I do believe it's the baby moving. YAY!!!

Today: 110 days since...

Hubby's sperm and my egg met for the first time and became one. The baby that's growing inside of me has been alive for 110 days. Oh btw: we are not finding out the gender of the baby. I love surprises and I love it when people tell me what they think I am having. I should put up a poll.. :-)

On a side note, I am sad they took away blogger.com at work. I can't update as soon as I used to before. I am protesting!!! Just kidding, can't afford to lose my job in this economy.

First OB/Gyn Appointment

So we had our first regular Ob/Gyn appointment. It went really well. I got to see the doc's office (really nice). The nurse called us in right away, she asked me to give my urine sample, the nurse also took the usual stuff like blood pressure, temperature, and she weighed me. I went up 2Ib's, before pregnancy weight. I think that's good.
The Doctor came in after I changed into the patient gown. She asked me how I was doing and I told her about my IVF experience, she checked my chart and since I am due 10/31 she stated that I was about 14 weeks pregnant at that time. She wanted to do a pap on me but because I had the incident at the ER, she decided that I had been through too much. Doctor also checked the baby's heartbeat and it was about 150 to 156, Dr. said that was a good heartbeat. Doctor also measured me just to make sure baby was growing.
After we finally finished up the nurse came me a bunch of magazines, pamphlets and the famous book "What to expect when you are expecting." Overall, it was a good meeting, the whole appointment was about 30 minutes.

Had a bit of a scare.

About two Saturday's ago, I woke up to a bit of a scare. It all started really early that Saturday, I was babysitting DH's nieces that day, Grandma was on vacation in North Carolina and their mom was working. I got to their home early because DH was on his way to Stagecoach (a bunch of country singers get together and have BBQ/campout). I guess DH likes country music, we both prefer Trance/Dance/Electro music versus country. DH was helping out a friend with BBQ at the event. Thank god it's only an hour in a half from our place.


I got to their home on Saturday morning, fed both girls breakfast in the morning, then started to give them showers and had to use the restroom really bad. When I went to use the restroom, I noticed I had a bit of bleeding, freaked me out. I was so scared I called DH right away told him, called his sister (she is a Pharmacist, she told me not to worry and just take it easy), I called my sister who came right away to help me take care of the girls and I even called my brother in law's brother's wife crying, luckily she was with a nurse who helped me understand that this is very normal and just to take it easy, as long as the bleeding is not heavy, I should be fine. I was freaking out. My point for freaking out was that it took us so long to get pregnant that I refused anything thing bad to happen. I called three different doctors for their knowledge and all of them told me to drink lots of water and rest. All I did Saturday was rest and sleep.


I woke up Sunday feeling alot more relaxed, my sister again took care of the girls. Luckily DH came home Saturday night to take care of me. Again I used the restroom to make sure the bleeding had gone away, when I checked, I had a bit of spotting spotting but it not alot.


DH suggested that just for a "peace of mind," lets go to ER. So we drove to the ER and got there about 9:30am. From 9:30am to 3:00pm we were waiting waiting and more waiting. It seemed like we were waiting forever and ever. During the waiting we saw and got to do an U/S, Vaginal check and blood test. Thank god everything was fine. The baby was even scratching his/her head during the u/s wondering what the heck is going on out there (silly baby - he he - scaring me like that) - too bad DH could not come into the u/s room. Right when I came out he was in the 2nd waiting room. I am sure he was hoping ever thing was okay. I could not hear the baby's heart beat but the u/s tech told me it was about 167 bpm. Still strong!!!

Just a note: People may not understand why I went to the ER that day, since bleeding may be a normal thing in pregnancy. But someone who in my case has been trying to get pregnant for the 2 1/2 years with no success and going through IVF (twice) will hopefully understand that I have spent alot of time, money and emotions going into this pregnancy and if anything bad happens, I would be a total wreak and soo devastated!!!

After that scare, I decided to take it very easy. I force my self to sit and relax rather then exhaut myself, it's not worth it!!!

It's official - The families know!!!

On April 22nd, we told the family about our upcoming addition. My birthday was on Sunday, April 26th. So my sister called the family to let them know that we want to plan a get together for that Wednesday in honor of my b-day. (I really don't celebrate my b-day) so my sister told all of them that I have not been feeling good due to the difficulties on getting pregnant...blah blah blah..so they were more than happy to celebrate especially for a Wednesday.

That day came by so fast, I was excited to tell them, but at the same time I am not a person that likes to be in the lime light. But this day was different, not about me, it's a more exciting news, and I would not at all mind being the center for a little bit :-) (sorry sister) - anyway, we all gathered at my cousin's house in Diamond Bar, California. My story started off being about my b-day (ohh btw, I got presents YAY ME!) so we were all together, going to start eating dinner and I told one of my nieces' that I want to show you my flyer, I am planning a Halloween party this year, I think she fell for it, cause she started telling myself and DH what she wants to be on Halloween. So I started passing out the flyer to each of my family members, DH and I wrapped them into scroolls with a ribbon. The Halloween date worked out best for us, because I am the type of person that likes to plan ahead of time, everyone knows that about me. DH told them not to open it until they all got a scroll to open. Once they all got the scroll, they opened it and they were soooo excited. My two nieces read it the fastest, they were really excited..I told them that my b-day was just a plot to bring the family together in annoucing the big arrival on Halloween. It worked out really well. They are so happy and excited that this whole experience is so real. I never thought DH and I would ever have a baby and now it's happened. I think 2009 will be a good year, it has to be!!!

Shout out to one of my co-workers who made the awesome annoucement!!!!

Pictures

I promised some pictures from my last post, the first one a picture of Dr. Hooseinzadeh, Nurse Lupe and Nurse Lisa at Coastal Fertility Center and the second picture is our little munchkin at the NT Scan. He/She was moving alot alot...even the tech asked both DH and I who is the brat in the relationship and we both pointed to me...he he I guess the kid will be a handful!!! Good I can't wait!!!

Graduation Day!!

April 16th was the last day we visited Dr. H's office. I have officially graduated. I will now be seeing my regular OB/GYN for baby appointments. I am kinda nervous, being that I am not familiar with anyone else except for Dr. H.

I was super sad leaving her office last Thursday, I brought the staff some cupcakes and my favorite See's candy lollipops, well in actuality I really like See's chocolate but since I cannot eat Chocolate, lollipops are the next best thing :-)

I gave Dr. H a computer made card with two pictures of us and her and also an engraved pen. I hope she likes the pen and card. My way of saying thanks!!
We also took some pictures w/Dr. H and staff. I will post pictures up soon.
The staff gave DH and I a diploma of graduation and a spoon stated, "special delivery by Minoos Hosseinzadeh." That's nice. I will keep that forever and show the little munchkin one day and tell him/her how he/she were born.

On a side note, I was thinking about how babies born via IVF are totally a miracle. I had three transferred and one strong embryo emerged, that's so cool. How did that one little guy make it...it's such a cool science that you start to think wow there are actual ways to help achieve pregnancy.

Now my question is: how does an embryo know to stick? I must of had a nice super glue in my uterus!! I wish everyone who has gone through infertility, know that it will happen. Pray and be positive...oh I kept saying, while on bed resting..."stick, stick, stick." Hey it worked :-)

Also, I was soo hesitant in the beginning about the whole "IVF" process, but I would totally do it again if I had to. For me it was the initial shock of the home shots and the egg retrieval process that scared me (thank god for anesthesia, I was out like a light...)
My shock about the home shots was, "oh god, my DH is going to give me shots...ahhhhh." But by the second round, DH was a pro at shot giving, YAY DH!!! BTW: I think he was also nervous about giving me shots initially but wont admit it.
Also for the second round of IVF, I started going to acupuncture. Wow, acupuncture is great. If nothing, it helped me relax especially when at that time my work was super stressful!

Did I say no more SHOTS!!

The week of April 6th officially concluded my shot. I am sad and at the same time scared. I am sad because I really really got used to taking the shots, in my mind the shots supported the little one. Anything that supports the baby, I am all for (righ?)

As I was leaving Dr. H's office last Thursday, she said "no more shots and no more level shot (to check my Progesterone levels)". I thought she was joking. Even the nurses stated nope, no more shots.

Dr. H as well as some of the nurses stated that next week will be my graduation :-(
"Do I have to graduate?" I was so use to driving down to Irvine every week to visit the Doctor. And the Fertility is not in a scary hospital it's in a nice facility where you feel comfortable to walk into. Oh well, by the time I know it, it will be time for Baby #2!

One more week with an awesome RE...

and at Coastal Fertility Medical Center in Irvine. Next week will be last week I see Dr. Hosseinzadeh and the wonderful staff. I will miss them.

I highly recommend her and the whole staff. They always return your call, even the silly questions (trust me I had alot of silly questions).

Unlike many of the other facilities I was originally researching, the Doctor (Dr. Hosseinzadeh) was at everyone of our appointments, she did all the ultrasounds, the transfer, and the egg retrieval.
Some of the other facilities, only the tech sees you, not here.

She really makes you feel comfortable. I even started to like taking the "big boy shots!" Isn't that sad!!

So I would definitely go and see her at least get an opinion, it never hurts right :-)
She is super nice and easy to talk to.

Oh, btw: I already told her I would be back for baby #2!!!

My Latest Pictures

This last weekend I finally posted some pictures up of our little "munchkin." Weeks 6 to 9: it's so cool because the baby went from being a tiny spot to a baby structure.
At our last appointment, Dr. H told us that the baby was waving it's hand and kicking it's leg. Whoa either we have a ballerina or a soccor player..hmmm..either one I will be happy!!!

I went on amazon.com last weekend and bought a frame to keep one of our sonogram pictures in one of the rooms. We have not told the whole family yet, but there sure are a lot of guessers.
That's okay, we have been married for five years now and I'm sure everyone is wondering what's going on, where are the kids. Especially in an asian family. Those questions are asked everytime you go to a family event. I always throw it back to them and say, "I am not having kids until my 30 year old sister is married!"

Oh, I made my 1st trimester screening, scheduled for April 16th. The screening will check for down's syndrome and other complications. I pray everyday, the baby is healthy and happy!!
We have waited to long for a little and would not want anything to go wrong!!

Weeks 6 to 9 U/S Pictures

Pictures @ Week 8 and Transfer Day

The last two pictures I posted were the following:

Feb. 10 - Transfer day. That's the day Dr. H transferred the 3 embryo's. The picture just depicts where Dr. H transferred the 3 little ones. I placed a red box around the exact spot. Can you believe one little guy went from blast stage to implementation stage..Wow..I am more and more amazed everyday at how Doctor's are making miracles happen.

It's going be crazy to say one day, but my kid was born "scientifically and in a lab." WHOA!!!

And the second picture is what stage I am at currently. I actually just completed week 8 amazing how time is flying, that's actually two months down and seven more months to go until we meet our "miracle science - munchkin."

New Pictures

Make up homework...

Gosh, I have not written on the blog for a while. Life is so hectic right now. Work, and the estrogen & progesterone shots really slow me down. I am super tired all the time. I told myself I need to make up for lost blog entries I hadn't been updating you all on. Week 6 & 7 seemed to fly by super fast. Week 7 really felt to me like a roller coaster, I had energy one day and the next I am so tired that I could sleep and not get up. I also had a bit of constant cramping (feeling of achiness) in the lower abdomen area. I called into Dr. H's office (BTW: I think she is sick of my so many questions but I always make an effort to apologize for all my silly questions) the nurse said everything you are feeling is normal. As long as it is not severe and accompanied by bleeding you are fine.

Week 7, I got to see Dr. H, she is so nice. I really am going to miss her and the staff. They are really nice and super patient. It must be so tough what they do. Dr. H is a miracle worker, she gives all her patients a 101%!!! I wish I could stay with her through the whole pregnancy!!!

So anyway, we went to go to see Dr. H on Thursday (3/19/08)for our weekly checkup - they moved their stirrup table around, I was not use to that, so I told her it was weird, Now I feel bad. I was not use to it :-(Oh well I will apologize this Thursday :-)

Back to my story, we went it on Thursday and Dr. H showed us our little or as she called it our little "gummy Bear's" heart. it was super cool. I can't believe a little baby is growing inside of me. It was really cool to see the baby's heart moving. It makes feel so reassured that everything is positive.

5w5d Pregnant..

Am I suppose to be feeling something? I just feel like I always have light cervical mucus and sometimes I have mild cramps. My cramps were alot heavier last week but they have subsided alot this weee. I guess the little guy/gal is getting cozy in my uterus. But I really do hope the above symptoms are all normal. Dr. H also stated that having cramps indicates that my follicles are slowly coming to normal size. I hope that happens soon. I feel super bloated all the time because of the huge ovaries and I look like a I am 3 months pregnant.

I called the nurses office and asked a silly question today, well I don't think it's silly but just a precautionary question: is it okay to get my eyebrows threaded. It's sometimes painful to get them done, so I just want to make sure nothing happens in the process..I am just being safe. I hope Dr. H doesn't laugh at me, I know she probably thinks I am a weirdo...cause I ask way to many questions, even my DH gets embarrassed by me. Oh well he married me, he's stuck with me!!!

Once I get an answer to my question, I will post it. I'm sure it's a popular question.

Oh btw..I aded a picture of what our baby looks like at week 5. WOW, I still can't believe that something is growing inside of me. It's taken us 2+ years to get where we are and now it just seems so surreal. I still has not hit me but we're PREGNANT!!! YAY US!!!

What I felt during the 2ww...

IVF is an interesting process. Of course, I am grateful for it. I can say today that I am pregnant because of IVF but I am not saying I enjoyed the whole process. It's alot of emotions and is physically draining.
Even today, I am taking the progesterone and estrogen shots, trust me they are not a walk in the park. Bruising and feeling the initial pinch of the needle..Ouch!!!
When I was on bed rest and even after that I wanted to find a website or a blog where someone would describe some of the symptoms of being pregnant during the two week wait.
For me, the two week wait was not fun, I had a bunch of emotions running in my minds, thoughts of sadness and thoughts of hope. My 2nd IVF round was definately different, I had more hope, and thought very positive. I prayed everyday to god asking, "please let this be my turn."

Some of the symptoms I felt during the two week week wait included:
1. Cramps: the embryo transfer was on 2/10/09 - on 2/17 I woke up to the worse cramping ever. It felt like I was going to start my period right then and there but nothing. After that day and to this point I still do have cramping. Sometimes painful and sometimes light but not often.
2. Milk: From 2/17 onwards I could not drink milk, It made the top of my stomach area ache so many times. I tried three different times and all three episodes I felt like I had the worst stomach aches in the world. I literally had to walk around to make the stomach aches go away.
3. Bloating: From 2/17 onwards I felt bloated all the time. I later found out that the bloating was due to huge follicles that were still in my ovaries. When Dr. H did a quick scan, she as well as I could see the huge follicles. I could not even fit into some of my pants. My stomach looks like I am three months pregnant.
4. Tired: I felt tired all the time. I even fell asleep to one of my favorite shows, "Heroes."
5. Postivie thinking: helps and keeps your mind at ease.
6. Enjoy: the two week wait, do things that you would not normally do on a normal day, i.e clean your closet that you have been meaning to do for a long time. I like to scrapbook so I did a little bit of that. Don't do anything that may hurt you of couse.

I hope this will be able to help anyone who is looking for more information about the terrible two week wait...

I have a problem with..

Peeing on a stick (POAS)...I think I am driving my DH up the wall with POAS. I am excited that we have finally gotten pregnant, but at the same time praying nothing bad happens, that's why I keep taking these tests. I am just enjoying and It's fun...don't tell DH.

Beta #2 ...

On Friday, Nurse Michelle...called us to give us beta #2: 2955..I am so happy that numbers are increasing "nicely," as Nurse Michelle stated.

Beta # 2 In...

Whoa...Beta #2 is in 1510...whoa..I am sooo happy, it's climibing. Nurse called us today and told me that everything looks good and your progesterone is good too. I did have to call her back because I was feeling a slight pain when I go to the restroom. Maybe it's an infection. I hope not...
Nurse L called me back and stated that she wanted me to take a urine sample just in case..I am praying it's nothing and it will pass...all these medications in the body, it's probably related to that...

February 23rd!!! YAY WE PREGNANT!!!

After 2 years and 2 months of trying, I can officially say and this is still really early...we are finally pregnant!!! YAY ME!!!!

It's be best feeling in the world. My Beta #1 came in at 812!!! I still have really no idea what that means but it sounds good to me :-)

I cheated from Friday of last week and took a total of 6 POAS at home...I know I could not resist..but they all came back postive, I will post a picture as soon as I get home tonite!!! WOO HOO!!! Gosh, it still feels surreal!

2WW

The 2 week wait was horrible. It's like everyday would be the longest day of our lives...arghhh
One thing I did learn is that, especially us gals..we need to stay calm and collective. Too much
anxiety is not a good thing...it could affect the whole implantation process...
oh and also staying positive!!!

Day 3 Bed Rest

Ahhh...the bed rest..I am super tired of lying here. But I am praying that everything works out. I am more positive this time than last..some of the things I am reading
LA Times
Slumdog Millionaire
Playing Sudoku
Reading US, People and Newsweek
Watching TV
Sleeping Alot...
Anything will help to keep my mind off of you know what :-)

I am happy!!!

YAY!! Dr. H called us yesterday and told us the good news!! From out of 7 eggs retrieved 3 Fertilized YAY!!! That's such good news..I was praying and praying that at least one would fertilize...thank god three did!!!!

So this not only means that I have at least three to look forward to but I will also have a fresh transfer. I can't wait until the transfer tomorrow morning. It will be a day 3 transfer YAY I know it will work this time, I have a good feeling.

Lucky Number 7

Today was ER day!!! I went nervous, not like last time...I was super nervous with round #1. But I was a bit better with this round. We got to Dr. H's office at 8:15am on the dot. Nurse asked us to fill out galores of paperwork FUN!! As soon as all the paperwork was completed I went the back room to get ready for the Egg Retrieval. The nurse placed the IV in my harm ouch...just a bit then she came me to medications. I remember one being Reglan...gosh I can't remember the second one. I believe both are antibiotics.

The nurse started the IV and soon I was wheeled into the surgery room...yay the time is now!!!
I remember the nurse and the Anesthegiologist were prepping me for the procedure. She placed both of my arms lay flat out, scared me a bit but it was not to get things tangled up. Next thing I remember was feeling really really dizzy...Dr. H showed me my follicles there was one big one I believe 24 cm's...and then I fell asleep. I don't remember anything after that...

About 30 minutes later I was wheeling back into the recovery room and remember waking up. I was anxious at the same time excited to see how many eggs were retrieved.

The nurse let me get ready. I did not feel that crampy from the last time...but just a bit.

Dr. H came in and told me they had retrieved 7...wow I thought that number would alot higher but with the first round I had 17 eggs and none of them were mature or not good eggs. This time Dr. H made sure that the medications they were giving me made the eggs mature. I prayed for 25 eggs before but I am actually happy with 7, I am confident that this round round will wrong..I have more faith than the first time!!! Please pray for me!!

I am going to pray all 7 will fertilize!! Please pray! Thank you!

Here we go again...IVF #2

Round #2...I am a little bit more optomistic about round #2 because I have a strong feeling that round #2 will work, it has to..no excuses...I started the stimulation about two weeks ago...The 3 medications I have been taking are:
1. Follistim 450
2. Luporn: 1st couple of days at the 1o line and then at 5 line
3. Menuper: 75 (because my LH was low)
Everything seems to be line and ready for my egg retrieval tomorrow...I hope they get some really good eggs tomorrow, in the first IVF round I had 17 eggs but the qualities were not that great. In this round, I am hoping they retrieve a good number of eggs but even better quality eggs..I would also love to have a day 5 transfer...am I asking for too much :-)

Wish me luck, I'm going under tomorrow...

Big fat NO...

I'm back, I have not written in a while...really sad and angry. On December 1st the day I will never forget: we recieved the news that we are not pregnant after IVF #1 - what a disappointment..I was sooo sad the whole day.

We went to go see Dr. H that morning to give my blood and went straight to work right after. I was so nervous I told myself not to think about it and just let it be. I even told my husband to hold on to my phone, I don't want to answer it. At 11:30am we got the call. He called me right away and told me (what I did not want to hear) - BFN....why why that's all I kept telling myself.

I went home crying as if I lost everything, it felt like I lost everything. My co-workers were worried about me that how bad I was. I was a mess...

That was the toughest day ever and I will never forget that day ever!!! w/out hesitation we decided we wanted to go for IVF #2. BCP's here I come....